The stress is building and I'm sorry to say I am buckling under the pressure. The Hurry Up and Wait attitude we've been getting from the Military for over a year has held things up beyond belief! We have so much going on and can't do a fucking thing until Pito gets to retire.
We live in an area of a City which we just can't stand and have been dieing to move for over a year now. We have been plagued with Baby Mama Drama since I can't remember which has put us at the beginning of what will no doubt be a very nasty custody case.
The Site it's self is very close to being done - as I know you all will be happy to hear, but we can't get anything off the drawing board as far as filming. It has proven impossiable to find anyone around here to hold the camera on Pito and I - so showing videos of us fucking is out of the question right now. Along with not being able to get a camera crew together, finding talent for in front of the camera has become even a bigger chore. We thought we had a couple models lined up along the way but they have lives and something comes up where they can't follow though. Of course many guys on facebook have offered to be in our videos, but many are too far away or just not what we are looking for.
Now the pressure of this site has been unreal! Trying to build the fucking thing, the expense of camera's, computers, software, out sorcing graphic work in order to have a kick ass looking site, buying the domain, copyrite and trademarks. We have a lot of change in this shit already and nothing coming in and no light at the end of the tunnel. Along with crew issures this bitch has even determinded where we are going to relocate. Now how fucked up is that?
Now I've been trying to say for months that I wasn't feeling this - please refer to my post on "Being the White Half" . Those feelings have not changed and if anything gotten worse. I'm a 44 year old White man who goes to the Gym - you can't throw a hand full of corn without hitting a dozen of us. As D. said, "nothing special".
I want to forget the whole thing and lick our wounds, but I'm sure Pito wont feel the same. So if he insist on pursuing I'll be happy to stay behind the sceens and run the shit. (Another stereotype realized) I gave up the facebook accout, but will put one up under my real name later on to keep up with a hand full of buds on there that I have made along the way.
Pito will still be there so don't worry. I personally believe facebook consumes way too much of his time, but he's always been our Public Relations man and he's very good at it. And lets face it, he's the one 80% of you wanna see anyway. Finally, to all you dudes who pay dozens complements to Pito on how sexy his man is - you ain't foolin' no one, if you thought I was hot you would have told me yourself (as many have - ty).
Peace
Rick Talons
u can't give up, u know i cannot do it with out you.....u know what your considered if you quit , i dont have to say it, and your so stronger and bigger than that so i dont know why your talking bout quiting, wtf is wrong with you babe....i'll tell you this if u quit so do i, cuz like they say there's no I in team!!
ReplyDeleteI said it before and I say it again - I support you guys in all you do. As much as I want to see the success of your site I want even more for your health, happiness and peace of mind. You see, I am invested in your success as a team because you both inspire me in so many ways. Maybe some day I can tell you why.
ReplyDeleteBut, suffice it to say for now, your love and support for each other is paramount. Now, I am not suggesting you don't already have it. Just reminding you to keep it on the front burner.
Don't worry about me and your growing legions of fans. I, for one, want you as a team - all the rest is secondary!
Well you just don't get it do ya Pito.
ReplyDeleteLet me put this into terms you can understand (and don't act like this is the fist time you've heard this)
Lets put all this into one boat, the site, the stress, the relationship - it's all one ship. Let's call it the Titanic - but this ship has a 2 man crew. Both crew memebers are not in control. No one at the helm, no one in the crows nest. Now at the current course and speed we are headed for the Iceburg - and collision is unavoidable!
Don't tell me I'm a quitter - especially with your head burried in FB While mine has been trying to figure this all out, I've been the back bone of this since the beginning - my shoulders are not strong enough.
Rick Talons
thanks so much for the comment Bill, truly appreciate that!
ReplyDeleteHowever you guys find your way through this tough time, please make sure that way through leads you both safely out together! Sendin' a Positive Vibe to you BOTH !!
ReplyDeleteI hope you have a change of mind. I personally love what I see between you and Pito. You've worked so hard to achieve your dream and are closer than you think. Don't gove up Rick.
ReplyDeleteAnd as far as see g Pito and the compliments that he gets - people really do react differently. I am a black man that is turned on by both of you. BOTH OF YOU ARE SEXY!!! I may click "like" on pictures of both of you on Facebook and not leave a comment but that's just the way I am.
Your dream can still come true. It's good to express yourself as you are doing. I beleive that something good will come out of that as well - but don't give up.
PEACE & BLESSINGS
Clive
hey RICK ...
ReplyDeletei understand the stresses of life can get to alll of us from time to time and support your desire to quit ... you have to do what is right for you !!! but just keep in mind WHO your actions effect ... not just yourself
i have never found PITO more attractive than you ... i find you BOTH EQUALLY HOT HOT HOT ... a GREAT TEAM !!!!
i hope we can continue our friendship when you do rejoin face book !!!!
TONY ... aka SUBCUB MN
mate youre a handsome man and Id want to see you get down and durty! I hope things get better for you mate and maybe in a few months the time will be right!
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